I go by Jacob. I’m a guy, I guess, and I have no right to be unhappy, and yet I am.
Depression sucks. I don’t know what more to do about it, so I’m not really dealing with it all that well lately.
I’m not sure what my goal is here. For some reason I got the notion that cataloging all of my plans for killing myself and then explaining why I chickened out seems productive (I can’t do it if I’m dead, at the very least).
Dark as this probably will be, this isn’t a how-to guide, it’s a don’t-do-it-this-way-dummy guide. I am not a councilor. I am not a doctor. I am not a professional of any kind. If you need that kind of help, please get it. I hope it works for you.
So, cheers? I don’t know how best to do this yet.